For by grace you have been saved through faith. And this is not your own doing; it is the gift of God. (Ephesians 2:8, ESV)
The first step to receiving eternal life is to admit that we don’t deserve it. The opposite extreme to that is thinking there is no way to have eternal life. God grants that opportunity to anyone, no matter how wicked or vile, and he will do the work of forgiveness, cleansing, and purifying. If you are attempting to get yourself fixed up before committing your life to Christ, it is as useless as taking a mud bath in order to get clean. Trust the Lord, no matter what you are involved in or what you have done.
Prayer: Lord, you showed me love even while I sin. Thank you for mercy and grace.